Please come into my home. Feel free to get comfortable by slipping out of your shoes and into these house slippers. Help yourself to food and drinks in the kitchen. Just remember to use a coaster, please.
On Sunday, I met my long-time friend Mohan for breakfast. We conversed about a few things, including the next steps for this blog. To keep writing, was my answer, and to potentially rebrand it. But, I couldn’t articulate a plan for this idea. The topic eventually digressed. Phewf, dodged that bullet.
As we parted after breakfast, Mohan noted that he was expecting a write up by Tuesday. Uhwhat? I was unsure of what he was talking about. Mohan wanted me to send him some ideas for rebranding Think Rainbows. He appreciates where I am, but is motivated to help me get to where I need to be. How nice.
When I got home, I settled in on my couch to take a nap. But, for a change, I couldn’t sleep. My mind wouldn’t stop reflecting and introspecting. After some time, I concluded that I am not content with complacency as I previously shared. Instead, I lack accountability to myself. This was my ‘aha’ moment.
I decided to change this sour attitude by not working on Mohan’s assignment, and instead completing a home décor project that’s been underway since I moved into my apartment in 2008. I always planned to have a dining room wall entirely of photos. In 2008, I painted the wall an accent colour. In 2009, I displayed a painting to fill the bareness. In 2012, I repainted the wall to match the rest of my apartment. In early 2013, I bought some picture frames. Eventually, I down scaled the project to a smaller collage because I was lazy. And, that’s where the project halted until this past weekend.
I finished the stupid photo collage after two days of finding and printing the right photos, and running around town to buy different frames. In my next post, I’ll detail each photo I used because they represent things I enjoy/value.
I feel pretty good for seeing a project through, a project that is for me (I’m usually very good at, and pride myself on, being accountable to others). This was a good weekend for me to try to grasp the difference between self-love and selfishness. I’m selfish in many ways (e.g. don’t ask me to share dessert), but I guess while trying to err on the side of caution of not being selfish, I kind of lost what I needed to make me feel good.
Now, if only I could fix the bathroom towel rack that’s been broken for more than two years. I swear I don’t live in a dump.
(1) You have to put yourself around people who think bigger than you. They will speak life into your future. (Robert Hills Sr)
(2) Self-awareness is only meaningful if you work to better and improve yourself based on that knowledge.
(3) Knowledge is power.